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Well not too much to report here. It's been so hot here lately, the kind of heat that makes it so hard to breathe. I literally had going outside during the day anymore.

Nothing new in the ttc area either. I'm on CD49 as I type this. :( I can't imagine what is going on, but all I want is to be on CD3 so I can go get my BW done and make my RE appt. :sigh: Why can't things just go right for a change??

Mike and I have been talking a lot about adoption the last couple of days. I think we are both just scared that we will find out our only option to have a child is through adoption, and when we finally come to that realization we will be told we are unable to do that also. I think mostly the cost factor is what scares us. That, and not being selected because we aren't one of the cookie cutter profiles that are on adoption pages. We don't live in a $250,000 house, neither of us have actually graduated from college yet, neither of us have $100,000 salaries a year. etc. We are basically a young couple who is starting out and trying to have the best life/houe/income possible for ourselves. We aren't handed anything on a silver spoon from our families, and if we chose adotion we would be the ones responsible for making it financially happen. I think that is what scares us the most.
We are trying to pay off some credit card debt, and I doubt we would even be approved for an adoption loan (over $15,000) even if we tried. Most adoptions agencies I have looked at show the avg cost of an adoption is $18,000. I honestly don't know where people find this kind of money??? I wonder if we are the only ones who don't have an extra 15-20 grand lying around just waiting to be used.
Well...I think I have vented enough for tonight. I think Mike is kinda tired of hearing me vent tonight to..hence why I am typing away here. Hopefully something will work out for us soon, and we can hopefully be called mommy and daddy very soon in our future, through pregnancy or adoption. :)

August

YAY!! I am off from work tomorrow and Monday. WOW Two whole days (in a row) away from my job. WHOOPEEE!!! This is so rare and far between that I'm not even sure what to do with two whole days off in a row. I can't even remember the last time this has taken place. Sad huh?

Mike got a new schedule with his work. They completely messed everything up. He no longer has weekends off, but now Sat & Tues. And then they have him working Sun 7-1 and then 10 hour shifts the rest of the week. :shaking head: Sometimes you have to really wonder how certain people get placed in management positions. The guy who was making the schedules prior to this Dumbass was pretty ok. He allowed Mike to have a decent schedule (1:30-10pm) and weekends off. But now this new guy took over, and pretty much messed up everyone's schedule. Mike said this one guy has no days off through the week, but all his hrs still add up to 40 WTF????? I would be giving my notice if that was me.

I told mike to tell them to shove it, since with him going back to school how can he possibly be expected to work 10 hours, get home at 11:30 or so at night. And then have time to finish school work and be up and at school by 8am?? I just wonder when he will have time to sleep. Let alone spend anytime at all with me??

I'm actually getting more and more nervous as his first day of school approaches. (sp?)
I was all for him going back to school, but that was with his old schedule at work. Now with this new schedule we will see eachother less. Not that we see eachother that often as it is. But less is even scarier.

Sigh...I just pray that if he takes me up on the telling them to shove his job he waits atleast until I see the RE again. I would atleast like to see what plan he had in store for us. (I mean we waited long enough to get to this point, it would be complete dissapoitment to not even hear what our "plan" would have been.
I guess I will just have to wait and find out. That is if my period finally decides to show up so I can make my bloodwork appt. and then my dr's appt.

Pic of Mike and Me :)