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Well not too much to report here. It's been so hot here lately, the kind of heat that makes it so hard to breathe. I literally had going outside during the day anymore.

Nothing new in the ttc area either. I'm on CD49 as I type this. :( I can't imagine what is going on, but all I want is to be on CD3 so I can go get my BW done and make my RE appt. :sigh: Why can't things just go right for a change??

Mike and I have been talking a lot about adoption the last couple of days. I think we are both just scared that we will find out our only option to have a child is through adoption, and when we finally come to that realization we will be told we are unable to do that also. I think mostly the cost factor is what scares us. That, and not being selected because we aren't one of the cookie cutter profiles that are on adoption pages. We don't live in a $250,000 house, neither of us have actually graduated from college yet, neither of us have $100,000 salaries a year. etc. We are basically a young couple who is starting out and trying to have the best life/houe/income possible for ourselves. We aren't handed anything on a silver spoon from our families, and if we chose adotion we would be the ones responsible for making it financially happen. I think that is what scares us the most.
We are trying to pay off some credit card debt, and I doubt we would even be approved for an adoption loan (over $15,000) even if we tried. Most adoptions agencies I have looked at show the avg cost of an adoption is $18,000. I honestly don't know where people find this kind of money??? I wonder if we are the only ones who don't have an extra 15-20 grand lying around just waiting to be used.
Well...I think I have vented enough for tonight. I think Mike is kinda tired of hearing me vent tonight to..hence why I am typing away here. Hopefully something will work out for us soon, and we can hopefully be called mommy and daddy very soon in our future, through pregnancy or adoption. :)

August

YAY!! I am off from work tomorrow and Monday. WOW Two whole days (in a row) away from my job. WHOOPEEE!!! This is so rare and far between that I'm not even sure what to do with two whole days off in a row. I can't even remember the last time this has taken place. Sad huh?

Mike got a new schedule with his work. They completely messed everything up. He no longer has weekends off, but now Sat & Tues. And then they have him working Sun 7-1 and then 10 hour shifts the rest of the week. :shaking head: Sometimes you have to really wonder how certain people get placed in management positions. The guy who was making the schedules prior to this Dumbass was pretty ok. He allowed Mike to have a decent schedule (1:30-10pm) and weekends off. But now this new guy took over, and pretty much messed up everyone's schedule. Mike said this one guy has no days off through the week, but all his hrs still add up to 40 WTF????? I would be giving my notice if that was me.

I told mike to tell them to shove it, since with him going back to school how can he possibly be expected to work 10 hours, get home at 11:30 or so at night. And then have time to finish school work and be up and at school by 8am?? I just wonder when he will have time to sleep. Let alone spend anytime at all with me??

I'm actually getting more and more nervous as his first day of school approaches. (sp?)
I was all for him going back to school, but that was with his old schedule at work. Now with this new schedule we will see eachother less. Not that we see eachother that often as it is. But less is even scarier.

Sigh...I just pray that if he takes me up on the telling them to shove his job he waits atleast until I see the RE again. I would atleast like to see what plan he had in store for us. (I mean we waited long enough to get to this point, it would be complete dissapoitment to not even hear what our "plan" would have been.
I guess I will just have to wait and find out. That is if my period finally decides to show up so I can make my bloodwork appt. and then my dr's appt.

Pic of Mike and Me :)

OH NO....I DONT WANNA GO BACK!!!

Well...my vacation is almost over, and unfortunatly I have to go back to work tomorrow. :(
All in all though, my vacation was a great, relaxing time. Saturday Mike and I went bowling and out to dinner. It was so nice not constantly thinking I had to go to work the next day. Mike also beat me at bowling. My score was a whopping 68.LOL Damn gutter balls. :)
Sunday we went to my parents house to go swimming and celebrate Mike's 27th b-day. Then we came home and went fishing off the pier at Pleasure Island. LOTS of fun. I caught 4 flounders (only 2 keepers) a catfish looking fish (threw back) and a small red fish (also released back)
So on Monday we had flounder for dinner. YUM!!!
Tuesday I went back over my parents to go swimming and such, and also got my hair cut. Yup, short. I am still alittle unnerved everytime I go by a mirror. But eventually I will get used to it. I think she cut about 5 inches off. So it is close to chin length right now. But it looks cute.

Today I just bummed around the house and pretty much played around on the computer all day. And did I mention dred going back to work tomorrow?

No news on the TTC homefront yet. Jackie the nurse practitioner I saw at my last visit called me and had me schedule more blood work. :another sigh: Are they ever going to figure out what is wrong with me? I feel as though they keep asking for more and more blood work to stall telling me what's really wrong with me. 3 years of no BC (birth control) of any type and still not one pg(pregnancy). Well...anyways as soon as my lovely AF (aunt flow) decides to make her lovely appearance Iwill be going in for more blood work. So hopefully she will be on time so to speak...and then the count down begins and I will see Dr Allon in 2 weeks to hear his plan for getting me pg in Sept. Oh why, Oh why does it have to be so hard to get pg? Why can't I be one of those people who "oops" forgets to take my BC pill...and BANG I get pg? If only it were that easy. I would hate to add up all the $$ we have spent thus far trying to get pg with still no luck. 3 Yrs and couting...hopefully soon I will get good news. Or atleast hopeful news. :)

My First Entry :)

This week has been an easy week at work. I ended up having every other day off. WhooPeee!!! Now, that's what I call work. ha ha

Tuesday, Mike and I headed into houston to go see Dr Allon. 2 hrs there, and when we arrive, the desk nurse tells me that she doesn't know why they scheduled me for an appt. that day. Because the dr is not in all week!!! What a let down. :( But atleast they still were able to do Mike's SA, and they had the nurse practitioner do my exam. But still no plan of action yet. :sigh:

So, we leave the office not knowing anything new than when we arrived...we are about 45 minutes on the road and we started to hear my car making a funny noise. It almost sounded like we were driving over bolts. Mike immediately pulls the car over, both of us thinking we must have a flat. (note: In the last year (since November 2004) I have had to replace 3 out of 4 tires due to flats..lucky me!!!)
Well we get out of the car and look, but no flat. So Mike gets down and looks under the car, while tractor trailers are wizzing by us going 70mph and shaking the car everytime they pass. And he says "your tire is f**k'd!" Not good.

So we pull off the highway (cuz in houston if your car is on the shoulder they will automatically tow it) :rolling eyes: And we end up pulling into the only place we can find off the feeder road. It was this gas &food place. But they also sold adult dvd's. Hmm....get all your shopping done at once. ha ha
Mike said the place was creepy, he went inside to wash his hands after he put the spare on the car. Anways.....
The rest of our afternoon was spent waiting for a new tire to be put on my car and then we went food shopping. (Now I know why they say...go food shopping AFTER you eat) Needless to say we spent $20 more than we had budgeted for food this week. YIKES!!!

Today Thurs....I off again from work..and I think I may go over mom's and dad's house and relax in their pool for awhile. Hopefully the rain will allow for this.